Now that the problem of what I iwll do for work next year and where I want to be have been solved, praise be, my tendency is to want to pick other areas of my life to improve, or rather, get up to speed.
Because everything is a problem.
Becuase there is some fixed ideal of how I should be.
Because life is meaningless without something going wrong that I need to make ight.
Because my ego wants to cling to the idea that “I” know what’s best for my life and that the means of achieving it are all within my power- related to this being the belief that anything that is “wrong” is a reflection of my lack of worthiness and the fact that I “don’t deserve it.”
Well, Ifinally recognize that this is not the answer.
Achieving goals is not what gves my life meaning- life is meaningful within itslef.
I don’t deserve happiness because I achieve something, I deserve happiness because I am a child of the light.
I”m not talking about living a life of denial when something’s really wrong. Or being ocmpletely without hopes and dreams.
But desie can be quite empty.
And seeing everything in your life as a project is really exhausting.
Living my life as a problem to be solved or a question to be answered isn’t eally working for me.
So let’s try something else- being happy and going with the flow, and not making my “results” my identity.
Because ‘m a whole lot more than that.
Well, I recognize that living like that is not the answer.